Hey all! So just a quick update on how things have been!
I started classes on Monday. It is kind of overwhelming. Most of my professors are totally crazy but overall I really am enjoying myself! I feel like I am finally doing the right things for myself by being here! I think that being away from Spokane for a little while is just what I need emotionally and Spiritually. I have been thinking a lot lately about the church and I really have no reason other than fear to not go back. It is time that own up to my mistakes! I have really messed things up for myself.
When I get down to the center of where it all started I come to one conclusion. I let Satan instill fear in me rather than letting the power of Christ and his love for me guide my decisions. I lost track of what is really important to me all because I was too scared to get my hands dirty. I was being selfish. I wanted to give up because in the end I am tired of adversity but that is not Heavenly Father's plan for me. He is preparing me for something bigger than I could ever imagine and it is time that I let him take the wheel again!
I really need one thing right now from everyone. Support. But for the first time in my life I feel like I am in the right place at the right time and I like it!
Goodbye for now!
P.S. Sorry I don't have any pictures up! I am lame and forgot my memory card adapter at home when I moved down here!
I started classes on Monday. It is kind of overwhelming. Most of my professors are totally crazy but overall I really am enjoying myself! I feel like I am finally doing the right things for myself by being here! I think that being away from Spokane for a little while is just what I need emotionally and Spiritually. I have been thinking a lot lately about the church and I really have no reason other than fear to not go back. It is time that own up to my mistakes! I have really messed things up for myself.
When I get down to the center of where it all started I come to one conclusion. I let Satan instill fear in me rather than letting the power of Christ and his love for me guide my decisions. I lost track of what is really important to me all because I was too scared to get my hands dirty. I was being selfish. I wanted to give up because in the end I am tired of adversity but that is not Heavenly Father's plan for me. He is preparing me for something bigger than I could ever imagine and it is time that I let him take the wheel again!
I really need one thing right now from everyone. Support. But for the first time in my life I feel like I am in the right place at the right time and I like it!
Goodbye for now!
P.S. Sorry I don't have any pictures up! I am lame and forgot my memory card adapter at home when I moved down here!
Well hello Jacqui! I'm glad to see that you have a blog now! We too have a blog, two actually, I have our "family" blog at: http://gotborders.blogspotcom and Jeff has his own blog at: http://jeffscrazyopion.blogspot.com.
ReplyDeleteI'm very happy to see that you are beginning to sort through your life and figuring out where you belong in this world. I think everyone has to go through a hard trial in their life to realize what is really important. And you are right about Satan, he will try anything to keep you from having a relationship with your Heavenly Father. And onece you get over the initial fear, it will get easier and easier to go back to church. Remember that you are you own biggest critic. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you with. Jacqui no matter where your life takes you, whatever you decide to do, I will love you!